Hello Everyone. I appreciate you visiting the site and reading my blog; seeing those pretty eyes again is good.
Sigh at this point I need to stop blaming life and try and do better, funny how I thought about doing a blog post just that life was life-ing me which I would talk about much later in a paragraph below. The new job I needed to settle into it properly so let’s say I was a bit overwhelmed especially because I was getting myself back from a few blows I took from adulthood and could not gather my thoughts together to write a post. I like to write with a clear head where I can hear and process my thoughts. so most times once I’m overwhelmed I tend to pause some things but I’m trying to change that and work on using my writing to express how I’m feeling instead of using it as a therapy; which is why I was trying to journal; I’m pleased to announce guys I failed that task, I could not daily journal. I’m thinking of getting a diary back, I have realised also that my phone is too distracting for me to use to accomplish any of these things like reading novels or journaling my thoughts so I should stop deceiving myself and approach the other way. As I can imagine if it’s a pen or paper I can easily write what I feel without auto-correct or pressing the wrong letters, I feel I would just flow with my feelings easily; so thank you apple while that app was very thoughtful I shall bow out and use it when I feel like and resort to the pen and paper method, as usual, I would let yall know how that went.
Moving on Happy new month! welcome to September my birth month Yay! I was not that excited typing all that but I just had to add all that for finesse. Funny how when I was younger I didn’t use jokes with my birthdays but as I’m getting older I am beginning to see it as a normal day and the excitement I used to feel has dropped drastically. I can’t say what killed the excitement but at least I am always thankful to God for another year added. After all is said and done, I was born on September 28 and I’m a proud Libra.
Adulthood, let me just say this again it’s not easy if I could take back the hands of time I surely would, I would enjoy every second of my childhood and not rush it for anything. August was a lot for me emotionally, it drained me and I felt extremely heavy with different emotions, and because I’m a very emotional person I tend to always get lost in my feelings and drown myself there. Trust me it’s good sometimes because I tend to get over things quickly; while some things make me just dive into the pool of my feelings and enjoy the ride. Last month I experienced a roller coaster and I’m very proud of myself because for the first time, I handled it very gracefully, I didn’t have any episodes of extreme lashing out or reaching that breaking point instead it made me turn back to my first love music and I connected instantly with my music side once again and it healed me and I felt so good. My neighbours, on the other hand, might not be happy with my newfound love because of “music” because whenever we spend time with each other we are always loud and can go on all night, most times I fall asleep with loud music playing from my sleep ill be wondering where the loud music is coming from Lol. All in all, I applaud myself for doing a great job, it was not perfect there were days at my workplace when I would extremely lose my cool and yell at vendors or Uber drivers, or speak rudely, but all in all, I would say I did a 6 out of 10 compared to years back when I was doing a 2 or 1 out of 10.
Very proud of myself I’m growing a lot, very much thankful to God it’s not been easy but I have been putting in the work and seeing the results. oh I know I said I wanted to change the theme of the blog posts and some other few things but I have not just had the time to self-indulge and do that I will get around to doing that sooner or later once I have proper time because its a lot and I want to pick the right theme this time and colours as well. That’s about it and all that happened in August I guess we are all caught up now, feel free to share whatever you would like to in the comment section.
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