Hello Everyone. I appreciate you visiting the site and reading my blog; seeing those pretty eyes again is good.
Why did I stare at my screen for about one hour before writing this? Well, that’s because introductions are always hard for me and I was wondering how to put my thoughts together. What a week just passed, so many emotions and feelings all in last week but we are entering this week hoping for the best, goodbye skies of grey hello skies of blue. Hope everyone had a great week and I’m wishing everyone a fruitful week ahead.
To update you guys, yes I did journal this week I think I missed two days but all in all I did a fair job I would score myself a 3 out of 10 seeing as it is my first try but I intend to do better in the coming weeks and journal more, but I would say personally I think I enjoyed the journal thing because while writing this I was reading my journal and I started to wonder and was like wow so this is how you were feeling on this day, it’s nice to be able to look back and read where my head was at or how I was feeling on a particular day so yeah for me journalling is a go and I want to do better at it.
Friendships, hmm I’m beginning to lose hope in the fact that I can ever have normal friends again I’m even beginning to think that I may be the problem or I have a personality problem that I need to fix and work on because the way I loose friendships is not normal to me anymore tho to be fair to be I don’t make so much effort in friendships, but that’s changing because I am trying more. So the one male friend I had and was a major positive person in my life has cut me off because he met the love of his life, as pained as I am its fairly understandable, we have this very lovely friendship where we just clicked and could tell each other anything and everything and I think that was one thing I enjoyed most about the friendship that I could be myself and talk freely without being judged, atlas he relocated to Geramny and deep down inside me I was scared because I knew that that was the beginning of the gap in our friendship the time difference but I told myself I would make it work and we did texted constantly and kept streaks to keep ourselves updated, one day he told me as usual about how he had found a white babe there I mean we updated and talked about everything, so I noticed our communication went ghost since after the whole I have a babe now and silly me decided to go into his DM and called him out the normal way we used to talk and trust me from our friendship point of view that is a normal way we talk to each other but there are culture diversties and the babe heard the voice note I sent and was not happy about it, I think she basically thought that were something going on with me and her man but sadly nothing like that exists betweeen us, and that was how i lost my friend, my one true friend. We tried to have hidden conversations and whatnot but it was just never the same especially because we could not have long phone calls anymore or confide in each other anymore. Recently I apologised again just to be sure that my apology was taken and that’s not why I was being cut off but my friend still told me it couldn’t work out… sigh that hurt me, i attached our friendship breakup below, that was one of the saddest things I had to deal with this past week, knowing that I have lost a friend
Goodbye, clouds of grey, hello skies of blue that were how a beautiful soul on my snap made me smile again this past week after the friendship heartbreak I was facing, she came into my dm with warm and sweet words, and she let me know how she came across my blog post and how it made her feel better about the situation she was going through and this made me smile knowing that sharing how I see life through my eyes are getting peoples attention and it is very relatable. So I may not be getting the skyrocketing views I want but the little I’m getting are being seen and the feedback is very welcoming, unlike before when if I posted my link and only got about one or two views I would wonder why other people didn’t click on the link especially on my Snapchat because I leave it displayed on my story for a whole week, the post may get many views but no one ever clicks the link to check out the page. But slow and steady wins the race and I know I would get the views I dream of soon.
Haha I’m already at the end and I still have more I feel like sharing but I would save the ginger and zeal I have for my next post just to give an introduction, I know I would have mentioned I got a cat called Hope but I’m not sure if I ever told the story of how she ran away, sigh I never knew a pet could break my heart lol she crushed me I cried when I lost her. But thankfully I have replaced her….. Anyway, let me stop my fingers now and save this gist for the next blog post.
And with that we have reached the end of another blog post, thank you all for reading till this point i appreciate you a lot and it means the world to me.
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